So I had this idea on my milestone birthday to try do something above and beyond what I was capable of. My initial idea was to run 50 miles. And somehow I thought that wasn’t really pushing the boundaries of what I was capable of – yes, it was harder and longer than just about anything I had ever done athletically, and it was scary as well, but not as scary as what I’m about to finally embark upon here.

     See, my idea was to create and publish 50 “films” in 50 weeks. I shared this with a couple of people close to me and even they said it might be too ambitious. So, like many other crazy ideas I’ve had, I shelved it.

    So it’s been a year. I ran my 50 miles. I did the “filthy fifty” workout. I played with my kids. I went out with my wife. I booked acting jobs. I went on vacation. Essentially, I enjoyed a life beyond my wildest dreams….and yet I had this feeling that I hadn’t created anything significant in this world.

    I don’t know if I’ll create anything significant in the next 50 weeks. I don’t know if I’ll even finish this version of an endurance event. Certainly the odds are against me and there is a high probability I will fail and come up short. But I have to try.  

    So if you’re reading this then I have gotten to the starting line. I have begun. Please bear with me. The “films” I publish will be a hodge-podge of creation. Some will be work I did a while ago, some will be from the day I post. Some will be contained narrative, some will clips. My goal/my intention/my mantra is to embrace the process and produce/publish regardless of whether I think it is good.

    I have spent so much time and energy critiquing and judging my work before it ever sees the light of day that I am virtually paralyzed by the critic. So I will publish work regardless of what I think about it. Some will be good. Some won’t be good. I hope to learn – about film making, about story-telling, and about what we’re capable of when we walk into our fear.